I’m about to babble for a bit, so bear with me…..
I recently read a blog post from a friend/former teammate that made me realize why I’m having such a hard time blogging lately. Back in 2007, triathlon was a new infatuation for me. Everything I did was like unwrapping a new present. I had a never-ending series of ‘firsts’. First 10K run. First 50 miler on the bike. First Olympic distance race. First 70.3. First 2 hour run. First 5 hour bike. First time peeing on the bike! First powermeter. First PR. First 140.6.
But here I am – in my 6th season of racing – and I feel like I’m out of things to say. Aside from the ULTRA distance, I’ve raced all the distances. In fact, my 4th 140.6 is coming up this winter. 4th!! How did I even get there?!? The training requirements don’t phase me anymore. I know I’m going to have long workouts. I’m going to have 2-a-days. I’m going to have sore legs. I’m going to have a raging appetite. I’m going to see my massage therapist and she’s going to make me cry. I’m going to spend a lot of money.
And, I’m going to spend a lot of time ALONE. This has become my normal, and writing about what’s normal seems boring.
If you follow my revealed life on FB or Twitter, you know that I travel all the time! I’ve been with the Rev3 AG Team for 3 years now and have taken advantage of the opportunity to see the US from the saddle of my tri bike. Tennessee, Connecticut, Oregon, Wisconsin, Oklahoma, Florida, Texas….all places I’ve been so far in 2012. And I’m not done.
This year I’ve struggled with food/weight. I’ve been on quite a roller coaster with fueling myself, but I’m not comfortable enough telling anyone what I’ve found because I still don’t think it’s my final answer. It’s an ongoing project, and I’m constantly learning as I go. I’ve been taking some risks – sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t. I finally feel like I’m on the right path (for now). I feel good and I’m moving weight in the right direction….more to come on this down the road. But because I’m not a master on the subject, I don’t feel like I should write too much about it. I don’t want to send someone else down the wrong path! But I do have some knowledge that I can share, and I need to do a better job.
Right now, I’m in limbo as an athlete. I enjoy the process, but I’m not committed enough to take it to the next level. (And even if I decided that I was ready to do so, I don’t necessarily believe that I’m physically able to go to the next level. But maybe that’s just a defense mechanism…..)
This season I’ve not raced a single local race (except the TT series). I don’t know who the local stars are anymore – and I don’t know how I fit in within the ranks. Honestly, I don’t really care – I’ve always been on the path of racing myself and not others. Racing the Rev3 races has kept me in a field with lots of FAST people on really TOUGH courses, and I’ve felt SLOW all season. I think this has dulled my competitive spirit even more than it already was. I show up to a race already expecting to be lower in the ranks, so the ‘race’ factor is lost from the beginning. I’m there to perform my SBR tasks in the most efficient form possible, but there are no real expectations beyond that.
Am I having fun? Hell yeah! I’m having a blast. I’m putting together my yearly “favorite things” post – this time at the end of the season after using and abusing all of my gear. I’ve had a great line-up of sponsors this year, and even if it all ended today, I know what stuff I would continue to buy and use.
Ok….I think I’m done rambling. Now for some action items:
- Food – I’ve had lots of requests for more ideas on quick and easy food ideas. This is one of my top interests right now – my ‘cooking without really cooking’ (aka refrigerator raids) – so I’m going to post once a week about my eating habits.
- Past-due race reports – I have a few of these! (sorry) They’ll mostly talk about the venue and production, more-so than my actual performances that day.
- Favorite things – As mentioned, I’ll be doing some posts about the stuff I love right now.
What do you want to know about? I’m willing to take topic requests if anyone has them.